- Created: Saturday, 31 August 2013 12:13
- Written by Andrea Yim
The GREAT REWARD….The courageous and daring prayer to trust.
How often do we ask and pray and plead to God that HE would give us the ability to TRUST Him more? I am truly convinced, more now than ever that trusting in Him consist of more than a sweet prayer. It consist of a physical, mental, and spiritual reliance on the everlasting God. When there is financial difficulty, a death, a job loss, parenting issues, the unability to conceive, singleness, the wrong doing to you from a dear friend,…TRUSTING seems as though we have forgotten it even exist. It is replaced with the whys? The emotions of anger and bitterness. The hardening of the heart to just turn to the things of this world. We choose not to go to Him, but run from Him. So why then do we talk to one another as though were just, “trusting in the Lord.” Or why then do we even pray if we can’t recognize that in order to TRUST HIM fully and completely depend on HIM then we HAVE to experience the absolute NEED of Jesus Christ.
I know I may sound shallow, but quite the opposite when I say I believe with my entire heart that unless you have suffered, and all to different degrees, then you can’t fully know what it is to learn to CHOOSE JESUS. Believe me, I’m not saying we have to trust in Jesus because it’s the right thing to do, which it is, but I am saying that when the nights comes, and I can’t breath because my husband is not by my side, and pain dwells up in parts I never knew even existed, I willingly choose to TRUST Him as long as I’m alive because HIS love endures……… I heard this song written by a man with cancer and the words say;
“I trust in you for every heartbeat as long as I’m alive, your love endures when I wake and close my eyes, help me to know you are God and I am not . remind my soul you're in control . Praise to the father with every breath I take in joy and sorrow all for your kindness sake be thou my vision and my hope restored, now and forever you are my great reward.
I won’t demand to know the reasons for my suffering...
These open hands will trust your wisdom beyond what I see
Help me to know you are God and I am not, remind my soul you're in control.
I know this is dangerous and daring just to pray this but I will trust you lord the rock throughout the ages ……you make me courageous
Help me to trust you more.”
My heart SO yearns for the Father to look me in the eye and say, “well done Andrea, for you have fought the good fight, you have finished the race AND you have kept your faith.” I yearn so deeply for God to say, “Andrea, when everything seemed to be taken from you, what you did with my son Jesus Christ is your great reward! “ I weep daily and truly it is a journey and cross that I carry every second. People on the outside, if they are normal hahahaha know that I’m literally just trying to get through my day, and yes STILL, but I trust that God has allowed me to stay here until he takes me home too and for that I will trust Him to lead, provide, guide and take me to level of intimacy I have never experienced before. Yes, little rays of sunshine peek through the clouds when the rains beat down and for that I must say, “Thank You Jesus, I choose to trust you, not be angry and trust you, I choose to know that YOU are God and I am not……….